Endless Mess

Published on 2 June 2025 at 09:00

Once upon a time (like a couple weeks ago) I deep cleaned my room until there were only a couple of piles of stuff on the floor, but those piles… sigh… I can’t really afford to have any piles on the floor as it blocks other areas that I need to access in order to keep my room clean, like the closet, or my dresser, or my computer desk, or my safe space under my bed. My room is about as large as I need it for every space to be essential, but if stuff starts to pile up on the ground, I can still move around it, so it isn’t like the end of the world, but it does still provide visual noise and a smaller physical space and I was so close! I wonder if I do finally get to that point where everything is in its place (even have a miscellaneous area for things I don’t know what to do with right away), I wonder if that would encourage better consistency. I know when I can access the closet without tripping over anything that I am more likely to hang my clothes up, and then they don’t get piled up and wrinkly…

 

Just keep trying, just keep trying… what do we do, we try… lol. But it’s true. If I keep putting in the effort, even if it’s not perfect the first time, I will make progress and start the long term rewiring of my brain’s neural connections which will make it even easier to maintain things in the state that I want.

 

Like when I got into the habit of dumping my clean clothes under my bed (It’s a loft bed by the way, so there’s plenty of space to hang out under there) instead of telling myself that I had to fold and put away all the clothes under there, I started a step earlier and added: Fold laundry directly out of the dryer. This made it way more likely for me to put the clothes away where they belonged instead of getting overwhelmed with folding them in my room and putting them away. Too many steps in the small area and it took too much time, and it was easier to just dump them… at least they were clean!

 

Anyhow… if I can do something like that for the mess on the ground, but I’m not sure it will work the same way… just if I keep trying and chip away at it consistently before it becomes bigger than it was when I started, it should eventually disappear. That’s the hope. I still don’t really want to, but I’ve thought about it… and I will try. Again.

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