Future me,
I suppose you still share my same name, and it might be weird to address you as such in this letter, but what would you have me say?
Dear me that I wish to be…,
What do I need to do right now? Do you have any secrets of what path I should take? The things I need to do to get to the spot you are in. I’m sure you have a beautiful life at this point. I dream of the library we will own and the many books that we will have written in our name. The friends we will have that will come and visit, the loving community we will be a part of, the amazing shape we will be in! Haha. That one seems less likely as it isn’t in direct connection with my future goal of being a librarian, but I do also want to be strong as an ox, and as full of stamina as … well, a human, I suppose. I believe I heard somewhere that humans have the best stamina out of all the beasts of the earth, so… I want to tap into that. Build it. Prove it right by getting myself into the best condition I can. I also want to do super cool pushup routines to music, it’ll make me feel so cool. I wonder how I can make pushups cool before I can do that, cause I do feel strong and cool doing them, but… sometimes it’s a real struggle.
So, future me, the one I want to be, what things would you have me do right now?
Eat healthy… huh… that’s probably what you’ll tell me first. Can’t have super rocking muscles if I’m starving. I agree with you. I really do. But sometimes, especially if I’m not out and about or have a specific place I stop to eat, I get caught up in all the other things that I’m doing and don’t take the time to properly feed myself and end up tired and stressed because the food isn’t there to do it’s thing.
Well, can I tell you the things I’m doing right now? Of course I can… here: I have been writing in the morning before work so I can make progress every day on my novel that I have decided will be the first novel I write. I do also have a short story idea that I’m going to dive into as well so I can have 2 overlapping projects when I need a break from one. But I’m sticking it to two and not adding any other, so if I have ideas that pop up that I’m interested it, I use ChatGPT to quickly write a scene that captures the idea and feeling and put it into a idea library binder so I can come back to it when I have open times, and if I decide that I don’t want it later, I can discard it and move on to the next thing. But that’s just something that I’ve decided to try. Who knows if you will still be using this by the time you get this letter. I wonder, should I put a date stamp and an alert in my calendar or something for me to come back and respond to this? Maybe… but whatever the case, I’m here. And I’m still trying. As I do every day.
I’m going to be brave and act as myself as much as I possibly can. I know some days, I’ll retreat back to old habits and mask myself in front of people who it’d be exhausting to be myself around. But, as much as I can, I will be unapologetically myself and they can take me or leave me, and that will be that.
So future me, I hope you still believe in this, too. Don’t let the world crumble in on you and force its ideas and opinions on you. You are strong and capable. Your ideas are good ones and have value to add to both your life and all those in your sphere of influence. Don’t let your voice get squashed. Never again.
Never again.
Please respond by May of the year 2025, I will be waiting…
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